Sometimes, I wonder when everyone grew up and left me behind.
You know how there are people who really flourish during certain periods of their life and "come into themselves"?
For Big Mishelle, this was probably last year. For Kim, this was probably year 12. For Little Mishelle, this was probably end of last year. I don't know. That's all I can really think of. Sometimes, I step into my tutorials and look around me and wonder what I'm doing there. Everyone is so mature, smart and attractive (I mean that in a "holistic" way; everyone is so "whole" and defined). Meanwhile, I'm still waiting for my "baby fat" to drop off (secret: it's actually just "adult" fat now), I still can't talk to boys properly, I still can't dress for shit.
The other day, Big Michelle told me about the blog of this girl she knows in fifth year med. We are, in fact, family friends. This is the blog: lefanciulle.com
Big Michelle mentioned that the girl used to be kind of nerdy but really "grew into" her prettiness. But I remember this girl, even when she was my age and in her "awkward, nerd phase," as being really friendly and quite outgoing. Maybe she didn't look the part but she certainly could play it.
I'm wondering if I'll ever "flourish" and look and play the part of the person I really want to be.
And lastly, this girl, Emily, in our FCP tutorial KEPT TOUCHING HER RANK ASS FEET in today's tutorial. Are you serious? Is it so hard to refrain from picking at your gangrenous tootsies until you get to the privacy of your home or some densely-leaved bush? It is so gross. The same thing happened in one of my exams last year but with a different girl. I was so distracted through the whole thing because I just kept looking and grimacing at this girl and her foul feet.
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
2 comments:
WHAT are you talking about. Remember the time we met up at uni last year (somewhere between octagon and arts); I recall spotting you on the bench and thinking PHUCK she actually looks like a uni student.. and then you proceeded to impart all this wise and mature sounding advice (i was emotionally derailed at the time) in the convo we had and yeh, i just really thought you had it together/felt comfortable with yourself and all of that, and i still think it true.
but it doesn't matter, cos i think we'll be at our prime in our middle ages anyway. we'll throw the most hardcore tupperware parties etc.
Trust me, you are one of the most mature people I know. I feel idiotic just breathing the same air as you.
LINEN PARTIES is where it's at yo!
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