Dear Person,
I promise I am not a mean person. I promise that I do smile and I'm very fond of laughing. A family trait, Catherine Bingley says. I'm three sentences in and have already digressed.
The point is, I am not a mean person. I usually think nice thoughts. Yes, I can be very judgmental but I keep these things to myself and readily recognize my own faults. When you see me walk past you and not make eye contact, stop to chat or do more than flash a small smile, it's not because I hate you. It's not because I think you're not worthy of my time. It's because I'm scared that if I do anything more than that, I will be rejected. It's because I'm scared you won't remember who I am and it will be awkward. It's because I'm scared you'll think I'm being clingy and weird.
If I could go through life without being seen by anybody, to be the very definition of a wallflower, I think I would.
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
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