It was $19.95 from the obviously high class, high quality Valleygirl. It is size 14 and therefore can encompass my man shoulders. I know, size 14? That's ridiculous. But it doesn't feel or look like size 14. Besides the fact that it is comfortable around my shoulders, it looks like a size 12. I love that I am able to put my hands on my head without feeling the disgusting strain of fake leather pulling me back down.
I also redeemed my free Baskin Robbins ice cream scoop today. Honeycomb choc something. I took myself on a solo ice cream date and enjoyed the hell out of it. I walked in and strategically took one stroll up and down the counter displaying the ice creams. If I had been with Little Mishelle, this alone would have taken upwards of 10 minutes. Then there would be multiple samplings and just a lot of general standing around, incoherent mumbling and deep-thinking expression. No, not this time. After this initial stroll, I chose the one that sounded the best and said, "That one, please!" to the girl.
I had a nice chat with the girl serving me then went for a walk down Beaufort Street while I ate my ice cream. It was nice. The Transperth gods were also kind to me and I managed to catch a bus just as I finished my ice cream and then, just as that bus got into the station, my next bus was waiting for me. It was amazing.
This week in review... I need some advice regarding Friendquest 2013. I don't really fear approaching this group of girls anymore and sitting with them in lectures. But then when we're let out and everyone's going to eat lunch, I'm not sure what to do. Do I just stick around and eat with them? I always feel like I'm intruding and like I've pushed myself on them. I usually just leave at some point. If Erin's there, she'll be really nice and engage with me, making me feel welcomed. The other girls are very nice but they're not quite as welcoming.
Other than that, I'm feeling pretty good. Generally. I had a bout of self-pity as I took the bus to get ice cream this afternoon but that passed fairly quickly.
You know when you're reading some YA book or watching a kids' TV show and they're talking about how much it sucks to not fit in? I never really got that before. Mostly because I never experienced that in school. I always had friends in school and those people have, for the most part, gone on to be my best friends now. But now, in uni where we're supposedly supposed to be able to find our niche because it's so diverse and huge, I feel like I don't really belong anywhere.
I'm not confident enough to banter with the popular people. I'm not nerdy enough (although that's a fairly apt description of me in many regards) to fit in with the nerdy girl group. I can't be boisterous and make suggestive jokes around them because they'll kick me out and tell me to find some other people to sit with in lectures.
Maybe it's just because the med group is pretty small. I don't know. I kind of just feel like none of the friends I've met at uni actually know the real me.
J
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