Friendquesting was a shitfest this week. There were so many times when I just felt so incompetent, out of place, unwanted and useless. I ate 50% of my lunches alone this week. On one day, I purposely ate lunch before my first class so that I could go to the library during lunch, knowing I wouldn't have anyone to hang with.
I'm trying to pump myself for next week but it's hard when you're not in the right mindset.
I have work tomorrow. Seeing my friends there (as well as R) is the only thing I'm looking forward to this weekend. Mostly because they don't know what a total loner I am there. And they're also forced to spend time with me.
In happier news, I'm coming to terms with the fact that I love the idea of study but I hate study itself. I love having a beautiful, neat set of study notes, a fresh notebook, a gorgeous, smooth pen, an uncluttered desk and an open window in front of me.
That is, I love it all until I actually sit down in front of it and then I'm screwed. I was reading this: http://www.copyblogger.com/schwartz-copywriting-system/ I thought to myself, "That's all well and good... but I can comfortably sit and stare out my window for 20 minutes and not feel inclined to do my work instead." I can pretty much amuse myself for at least 20 minutes so the six rules this person cites do not apply to me.
This being said, the study environment I described above is pretty much the study environment I have right now. I love it and hate it at the same time as it is equally conducive to both study and daydreaming. And yes, I instgrammed the shit out of this picture:
J
No comments:
Post a Comment