Oatmeal Chocolate Chip

10 minutes into watching The Host. I have no regrets. Main guy is so hot. He reminds me of Wren from Pretty Little Liars. Wren is my life blood. This is my only criteria for watching movies. Must contain hot guy. I must now watch the rest of this movie.

I have not seen R in over two weeks. And we are not rostered on together for the next two weeks either (or as far as the eye can see). I am sad. I miss him. Or do I just miss the thrill of interacting with a crush? I didn't find him attractive at all for the first few weeks I knew him... then, all of a sudden, I wanted to hit it hard. Is it just because I feel a need to latch onto people and men/boys and have crushes otherwise I wither away and die? But then again, I don't think I've ever felt so comfortable with a man friend (whom I like in a romantic sense) before. Or any man friend (platonic or otherwise).

This week (or last week, I guess) was good regarding Friendquest 2013. I went to a quiz night on Tuesday. I felt like I really put myself out there for it. All throughout the ordeal of finding myself a table to join, I felt like people were judging me for being clingy and desperate and trying to invade people's friendship groups. But when I went there, it was cool and I had a good time.

On Friday, I went to a birthday breakfast for two girls in med, Chloe and another girl from her group, Em. It felt really good to be invited like I was being accepted. All those times I hung out with some of them or loitered around, I had this fear that I was pushing myself onto them. Being invited to the birthday breakfast kind of allayed that fear. When we were leaving, I said happy birthday and goodbye to Chloe. She got up and gave me a hug. It made me happy. Is that sad?

I'm probably going to bake cookies to bring to my tute on Tuesday morning to butter up more people and force them to be my friend. Oatmeal chocolate chip sound good?

J