My Psychotic Side

I had work yesterday as per usual but R was not present. Nor will he be for the next few weeks (or as long as the roster extends).

Sometimes I question my feelings for R. I like him and am attracted to him but he's so... I didn't think I could ever be interested in this sort of person. He doesn't seem to have much direction or ambition in life. He's 23, presumably still lives at home, works a menial job in retail, his educations goes only so far as high school. I hope there's more to the story than that but I don't think there is. He's a complacent sort of guy and doesn't seem to want much out of life. All this saving money and working is for a six month stint in Japan. But what happens when he gets back? Is there a plan? Is he going back to uni? Is he going to actually work towards something at TAFE or continue doing random units? Is he going to try and get a better job (no offense to myself...)?

It's not like I'm planning my future life with him or anything (...) but ambition and a good work ethic is so attractive. And it's something R is so severely lacking.

J