Tea

I want out but I want in at the same time. I would love to be a doctor... but I don't think I'm meant to be a doctor. Does that even make sense?

I had a meeting with my mentor yesterday (do you remember him? Renal guy?). He was amazing. We had coffee in the shitty hospital cafe (well, I had black tea. It felt so wrong to be charged $2+ when they literally give you just a cup of hot water and a Lipton tea bag. You have to put the tea bag in the hot water yourself) and talked. He was very cool and I thought to myself, "I would like to be that cool someday."

I will be that cool someday. I will.

I bought Coles brand peppermint tea bags on the way home today. Should have splurged for the Tetley or Lipton. Coles brand is absolutely tasteless (unless you suck the tea bag) and now I am sad. Should I try using two tea bags at once?

Lastly, I don't think I've mentioned this but I've completely wrecked both knees. I feel I should be more upset and worried about this but, for some reason, I'm not. I've been avoiding any exercise that is too high intensity (haven't run for a week, no more jump squats which I'm secretly happy about) and sticking to weights. It started a few days ago when my knees started feeling very achey and heavy. Naturally, my mind immediately jumped to early-onset osteoarthritis or gout. I even asked my FCP clinical skills tutor about it today.

I was stubborn and kept exercising in the same way for a few days after the pain started. It made it so much worse. My knees, quite seriously, felt like they were going to fall apart every time I jump roped or jump squatted or ran. Until one night when I went to lie down in bed, stretched my legs out and felt this rush of hot, achey pain to my knees. It was... concerning.

Hopefully, all the pain resolves over the next couple of days. Otherwise I will never walk again. Legit.

J