How To Deal

I've been having an absolute rubbish last couple of days. The lack of stimulus, the being inside, the friends who are constantly busy. That plus health issues and my dad's half-sister has advanced cancer she just found out about. I'm used to seeing my mum cry (like... every time my grandpa goes back to Malaysia) but seeing my dad cry is really bizarre and incredibly depressing.

Yeah. Not been having a good couple of days.

That thing I was hinting about earlier involving things that are too "private and intimate" or whatever words I used. It has amounted to nothing and I feel like a chump.

I just can't with life right now. I want to be on a holiday somewhere far away.

I sat down yesterday night and wrote a list of things I wanted to today. Here it is:

1. Write.

2. Read.

3. Bake --> bread?

4. Lib --> DVDs.

5. UWA writers' club (joining with Kim next semester).

6. Buy something for Wynn's.

7. Oatmeal raisin cookies.

8. Finish top.

Of the eight, I completed an admirable three. I wrote (or started writing... but it became depressing and I gave up). I read the last installment of the Airhead series by Meg Cabot (halfway through at present). I did not bake bread. I did not buy something for Wynn's (but I will tomorrow) and I did not finish top (it got too hard so I put it in my scraps bin. Oop).

Tomorrow will be better.

J