Oh Hey Kirk, Getting a Cold?

Situate yourself here.

I'm walking towards my FCP tute. I look inside the lobby where all these here kids are sitting around. As I look over, I spot F and he looks up at the same time. We make eye contact then both awkwardly look away. I walk over to a girl in my tute who's walking outside. We talk. I try to appear natural and not at all phased or awkward by what has just happened. We go into the tute.

Okay...

The tute is over. I'm packing my stuff up, taking super long. F is standing there, apparently waiting for me. Because we're FCP partners you see. That's what kind of blows; I don't know if he'd be waiting for me if we won't FCP partners. So anyway, finally he gets tired of me taking so long or because people are lining up behind him to leave. So he leaves. And then I leave and he's waiting outside for me. But he's trying to be all nonchalant and trying to look cool. Then he does that thing where the other person comes out and they try to merge with the other person's stride.

We talked about the work we had to do for the next tute... for a little while then we talked about other stuff for the rest of the time. Which was good because it indicated to me that he hadn't waited for me purely to talk about work for the next tute (well, maybe partially) but also to chat. We bumped into Meg on the way out; I gave her a hug and a quick word but I think she understood my frantic expression and let me go walk with him.

And he was WAITING FOR ME. Albeit, this sort of awkward, slow hesitation but he was still waiting. I'm making this out to be way different to how it actually happened. In fact, I'm about 95% sure he thinks of me just as a friend but part of me hopes otherwise... In other news, I feel as though I have to make an effort to be more friendly and more natural and talk about more interesting topics because right now all we're talking about is school; sure, we talk about how stuck up the lecturers are and how stupid 8am tutes are but I know we have things in common and I know I'm interesting... but it just doesn't come naturally to me when I want to make conversation with a boy I like.

I'm watching Gilmore Girls while writing this. Season one if you must know.

J