I felt like balls again today. My shoulders just feel heavy with all the work I have to do still... Dreading physiology lab tomorrow because it looks complex and I think we have to turn in our work at the end. I had a look at the questions and am completely lost.
What I feel like right now is this... Sitting down on the grassy hill outside my old English lit classroom with my friends, talking and laughing. Being completely relaxed, not a care in the world.
I'm trying to stop that feeling I had at the beginning of this year when I was beyond stressed. I was an inch from giving up. I just feel rotten right now. And I'm tired. In need of sleep and relaxation. This summer holidays must consist of a lot of sleeping, taking trains to eat Frutti Tutti with lads and just hanging around. I think I'm over going out ('sif; I'm 18 and have never even really gone out but, to be honest, I don't think I ever really will be into it) or doing anything even mildly strenuous. I've always been a total homebody. I love the comfort and the familiarity of home.
Sometimes I feel like Beth from Little Women (I base my knowledge of the 1994 movie) when she's dying and Jo is by her side, comforting her. And she says to Jo, "I never knew why everyone wanted to leave home... You were always leaving me behind; now I am the one leaving you behind." I don't know; my paraphrasing skills are lacking. But what I feel is that... I just love familiarity.
Eh. We'll see how things turn out over the next week. If I have a nervous breakdown it'll be your fault.
Kisses.
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
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Hmmmm...Clubbing isn't that great to be honest. The money you spend on one drink could buy you a bottle with five times more the alcohol. You get awkward moments whilst dancing cos the shitty part of the song comes on. And sometimes(worst of all), you are sober and some seedy, older guy with a weird stubble and definitely requiring a shave will be grinding on you and employing the use of the cheesiest pick-up lines that could be easily topped by a pubescent BCC kid. And that's saying something!
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