The last few days have been draining. The sensation of depression or melancholy or whatever you want to call it is almost always more draining than the problem or issue at hand. It is the feeling of going to sleep with something lodged in your throat and a clawing or empty feeling in your heart and belly and waking up with the same feeling, no peace from the night's sleep, that accumulates and takes over your body.
You don't feel like you anymore and you don't feel normal. You can sit in a crowded room and feel unbearable loneliness or feel like at any second you will dissolve into tears. You have no consolation or comfort.
I have a doctor's appointment at 9am tomorrow morning. Hopefully there will be something resolved. Otherwise I'll just get on with it. This time next week, I'll be happy again. Maybe by the time you read this, I really will be fine. Regardless, I'm just talking here and you don't really need to pay attention to this post.
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
2 comments:
I know how you feel (or something similar to it). Its near impossible to find the right words to say, but I hope you remember that I am here for you if you need me.
love you <3
thanks caitlyn.
love you xx
j
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