Feeling considerably rubbish at the moment.
It's really a amalgamation of various things. I have a midsem in two days which I feel somewhat unprepared for. Like, I know the content but when you put me in a room with a question about it I'm going to blank out or the question is just going to appear really foreign to me. It's like... I always memorise the content but I don't actually understand the concepts so put foreign content but same concept and I'm not going to be able to grasp it. It fucking sucks.
I don't know why but I'm somewhat anxious about my chemistry lab tomorrow because I suck at everything.
One week into this semester I was 85% sure I wouldn't be able to pass all my units and I would get kicked out of the course. Now, I feel like I've fallen into this delirium where I've fooled myself into thinking I can pass but when I actually do the exams I'll fail all of them.
Also, I'm just tired of pining over F when it seems like he doesn't even like me that much. Who am I fooling? He doesn't care about me. I'm just that fat, ugly Asian acquaintance he sees a couple of times a week.
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
8 comments:
Stop calling yourself fat and ugly, for fuck's sake.
I agree with anonymous, you are fecking beautiful and you could bounce a quarter off of that thang.
Also, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO FAIL!!!! If anyone can succeed/pass, it's you my dear (miss dux of 2010 :D) You can do it, believe in yourself, dude, because all the rest of us believe in you :)
I'm sure F blogs daily about a mystery gal named J. I don't know how anyone could not appreciate your friendship/glorious presence, and assuming he possesses any intelligence (which I assume he does considering the course he is studying) I'm sure he is no exception to this.
<3 Little M
well thx but u have to say that because you're my friend. it's not like you're going to say "PUT THAT UGLY MUG AWAY."
i guess i do believe in myself but sometimes i'm just... like... everything goes over my head and i just feel tired.
f does not blog daily about me. f probably doesn't even think about me. the worst part is i like him so much its borderline innappropriate. but why doesn't he like me? it frustrates me because i feel like we have personalities that mesh well and i think i'm a nice person and yes, i'm not the most attractive person out there but i know i'm not ugly. i might say i am when i feel down but i know i don't repulse people. i just feel sad like i don't understand why boys think i'm so unnattractive. especially f...
Um, I'm not a very nice person, I would totes say 'your face is really unfortunate, J' if I thought that to be true.
I completely understand what you mean, I quite often feel like that too. :/
Hmm...
1. 'Borderline inappropriate' - let's be honest with ourselves, bit of an understatement, no? :P
2. I've never met him, so I can't judge, but I'm sure he likes you too, as a good friend, in the least. And I don't know where you've gotten the idea that boys think you're unattractive? There is no evidence of this absurd notion.
I agree with anon. How do you know that guys think you're unattractive? That's a ridiculous assumption to make!
For what it's worth (coming from a heterosexual female), you are not ugly nor fat. And if F thought you were nothing much to consider, then he really wouldn't go out of his way to talk to you every lab lesson. As a general rule, if the person sucks then you move next lesson. But he didn't! Don't lose heart, love. Anyone would be mighty pleased to have you as their doctor ;)
Um he has to talk to me because i'm his lab partner and because I forced him to be my lab partner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg don't be so naive. I don't talk to my lab partners about this or that if I hate them. It's mostly "Let's get the work done so I can escape you." F doesn't do that ergo everything is going swimmingly thusfar.
omggggg who are these anonymous commenters?! now i can't address you by name. it's less intimate.
w/e.
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