Lamenting

So I only have one exam left. And, as per usual, that is FCP. You know what that means... a lot of sitting around, staring at the ceiling and not studying FCP because I don't want to and, for the most part, I can get away with it. Because FCP is a flop unit.

FriendQuest 2013 will continue next year. I think FriendQuest 2012 was successful this year. Despite not being the social butterfly I wanted to be, a got acquainted with a few people and I think I'm slightly more confident. I probably just think too much. It'll be fine. I made Nadia give me a pep talk the other day (she gives good ones). She told me that everyone is actually alone in life, even those who are really sociable and know everyone. It made me happier because the main thing that gets me is I become paranoid and think people are judging me (they probably judge me more for being antisocial than anything else) and that they don't like me or thing I'm weird. The more paranoid I get about these things, the more these things manifest in my personality and conduct. The more I think about how people must think I'm weird and antisocial, the more I don't want to talk to people.

It's a vicious, vicious cycle.

J