The events of the last couple of days have me feeling all questionable inside. I discussed this stuff with Big Michelle a little while ago; spirituality and beliefs. I think stuff happens for a reason. But then you see senseless things like what has happened and you wonder what reason that could possibly have. When shit stuff happens to me I tell myself, "Okay, this was for a higher reason I don't know," and eventually I move on. But what purpose did it serve? All it did was give me inner turmoil and yes, I moved on but sometimes I feel like that is testament to just time and things happening and forgetting. Nothing about higher power or purpose.
It helps me to deal with stuff to think everything happens for a purpose. But it's really hard to feel that way when you see bad things happen to undeserving people. It feels so unfair to see good, decent people have tragic things happen to them and bad people live long lives, going about their unethical, immoral means.
In less serious news... Still so conflicted about F. Also, fuck, he has some fucking strong body odour or wears really strong deodorant (sp?) or cologne or something. I can smell him the second he comes into the room. Maybe that's because I'm just really attuned to it...
J
About Me
- Junaberry
- I'm a student from Australia who used to have a lot of time on her hands but doesn't have that much anymore. Now she has other stuff on her hands.
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